a weight update

My birthday goal was to be under 200lbs. BUT. always a BIG BUTT with me. Something really bad happened. Heres how it went down:

At christmastime I bought all the fixins to make cream cheese sugar cookies with cream cheese frosting. Im talking the works- real cream cheese, butter, sugar, everything. BUT (another BUT!) I didnt have the guts to make them over the holidays because I was eating everything yummy at all my fruiends and families homes! I couldnt eat every delicious thing i saw and then come home to a house full of sweets. So- I waited until the 3rd week in January to make the damn cookies. I made 4 dozen. I took 1 dozen to work, adrian ate maybe 2-3 of them and I ate the rest. Yes- I ate 3 dozen cookies within 2 days. I didnt really eat any other food either, just cookies. Then I spent 2 days bloated at my favorite weight...212....

WHAT THE HECK WAS I THINKING? I FEEL LIKE SOMEONE PUT CRACK IN THOSE COOKIES AND I COULDNT STOP! So back to strict weight watchers point systems and killing myself at the gym to get back to my original goal which was to be under 200 by my birthday. Can I lose that much weight so quickly? yes. I can. I will. I have to.

I have been doing EXCELLENT this week- Friday night did an hour of cardio, Saturday did 20 minutes of cardio and yoga, Sunday I took off, Monday I did an hour of cardio, Tuesday I did a fitness incorporated training class and 20 minutes of cardio, then Wednesday (this morning) I did 40 mins of cardio. Whew. It was tiring just writing that. I am ALMOST where I need to be and that RULES.

I skipped my weigh in last week because I couldnt face the truth, that cookies could literally do such a mean thing to me. I cant skip anymore financially, I am paying to be there so I must face the music. I am also starting at a new center close to my house so I dont have to drive as far. I get nervous about new people and new experiences especially since I lost my WW buddy- thats no fun, but I will survive.

I have to keep looking at my dress, but moreso my dresses measurements. I am about 5 inches away from getting into it. THIS IS A HUGE incentive for me! Dresses are easily taken in but not so easily "let out'. I dont want to have my pride shot down by them having to add a shamu amount of material to the dress because then it would look less than perfect and it is PERFECT just how it is now!