what about thanksgiving?

Hi Thanksgiving,

I just wanted to write you a little note to tell me that I am NOT willing to gain weight for you this year.

Love,
Jessica

What are my thanksgiving combat plans?

* Wear my "skinny" jeans, not the tapered leg ones but the ones that I wear when I am having a "skinny" day. This way I will feel very uncomfortable and confined and not want to over eat because I simply have no room. This is different from other years where I wore a jog suit or "fat" pants or something with an elastic waist so that i could pack in the food with only minor clothing discomfort. Ew. It grosses me out just to type out my old mentality on eating that dreaded holiday dinner.

* Wear a fitted sweater- this way I am hot and uncomfortable and since my whole family knows I am trying to loose weight i will want to uphold that image. With something fitted- i wont want to engorge myself with food because my shirt will cling to my belly. I will not hide in an over sized hoodie that could give me a chance to sneak and unbutton my pants.

* Eat little and eat often. I will graze all day instead of having one huge lump meal and make sure I am aware of what I am eating.

* Drink a lot- water & dietcoke will be my friend. I will get a fountain refill any second of the day to bloat my stomach and make me feel full AND I will drink water with every bite of food. I will not let some sodium and over eating limit my drink intake.

* I will NOT drink alcohol. again, I will NOT drink alcohol. AS MUCH AS I LOVE WINE TO PIECES, its just not a part of my life right now- and I am okay with that. I just need to repeat that I will not drink alcohol because if I write it out then I feel committed and other people read this that I will be around so this way I am accountable.

....get ready for this....

* I will go to lifetime before I go to my family's house. There is a fun & funk CRT class at 915am on thanksgiving that I will MOST CERTAINLY be at. I am going to get my heart going early and often. I never ONCE in a MILLION years thought that I would have the desire in me to work out on Thanksgiving- but this year I want to! I am NOT going to freaking gain any weight this Holiday season! I am going to maintain and lose ONLY and I will not accept anything less. My goal was to be under 200lbs by January 22nd (my birthday) and I am going to do it dammit and if I work hard enough then I will be hitting my 25 lbs by this weekend.

Seems like I have it all together- BUT (always a big BUTTTTTT)

I am worried about my work potluck on Friday. Everyone is bringing things I LOVE and I am just praying that I will be too busy to eat any of it but I know I will be passing by the spread of food ALL DAY LONG. I didn't even volunteer to bring anything healthy :( I should have. that was dumb.

I am going to workout tonight, workout tomorrow morning, get cardio crazy and lose some weight dammit!!!