You mean to tell me I have to do that bullsh*t for 30 DAYS!?!?!

Today I started the 30 day shred and Jillian Michael's is dead to me.

There is NO WAY that a 400 pound person can do any sort of modified level 1 of the 30 day shred. If you have done this- you know what I'm talking about. I felt so overweight and jiggly that the fat on the top of my feet and my forehead fat and just EVERYTHING about my body was disgustingly quivering with motion. I felt like I wanted to throw up- not only because the moves were excruciating and forcing me to do things that my body cant do but also because the jiggling factor of my entire body was just plain making me sick.

I am gross because I am obese and jiggly.
Jillian Michael's is gross because she is too ripped and manly.

Can I find a happy medium? I HOPE SO!

this program has worked for SO many people and you can feel it doing SOMEthing so it just may be working deep inside of me! ha! Who knew there were muscles under my layers of fat? maybe they will come out of hiding in a couple weeks- until then, wish me luck.